9/14/09 Katie's Healthy Eating Journal: Monday

I don't know if you remember my blog from Friday but I was extremely stressed after work.  My past students are putting some of my really good teacher friends through the ringer.  I try not to take things personally, but I do.  When they act violent and disrespectful for some reason I feel like a failure.  When they were in my resource room the previous year they came so far; learning how to handle their emotions (especially when so many of them come from troubled home lives).  I built a relationship with them and we respected one another.  I've been so torn up that they are in full inclusion now because they are drowning.  The meltdowns are incessant and it just saddens me to no end.  My Dad gave me some good advice and told me I need to let go.  Their new Intervention Specialist (Spec. Ed. teacher) is there for them and needs to figure out how they can be successful.  She's a great teacher and I need to have confidence that they will adjust.  I really had been thinking that my stress and weight gain went hand in hand. I came into school today determined not to let their behaviors affect me.  I decided not to do my usual stop in to all my fav friends on the other wing of the school after classes today (mostly because I had so much work to do).  But, I hate to admit, not going over to visit meant not hearing yet another horror story of how my kids (from last year) were doing...which was usually not good.  I actually got in the car and felt relief today.  I wasn't overwhelmed with feelings of anxiety because I didn't partake in the drama from the day. I'm torn because I love visiting my friends and being a good listener so they can vent; but on the other hand, it is getting really difficult to continue listening to the horrific things that are going on - especially knowing they are not my students to really be a part of anymore. We will see how the rest of the week plays out.  It certainly isn't realistic to not visit them anymore.

Weight - 117.8 lbs.

Exercise -  None

MONDAY

Breakfast - 

Jenny Craig Breakfast Stuffed Sandwich (200 cal, 5g fat)

Banana

1 cup fat-free organic milk

Vanilla Coffee with fat-free creamer

Lunch -

Jenny Craig Burrito (260 cal, 6g fat)

Carrots

6 oz. fat-free yogurt

sugar-free jello

Snack -

Plum

Dinner - 

2 oz. Garlic Herb Grilled Chicken

1 cup whole wheat pasta

Spray Butter

Salad (mixed greens, croutons, tomatoes)

Snack - 

100 calorie pack